Complaining

Apparently, Georgia isn't good for my blogging habit...

This post is probably going to sound like complaining, so you can stop reading now, I won't judge you. And don't judge me if you do keep reading! I could use some support, ideas, or just love, though.

I feel like crap. Basically all the time. After consulting a lot with some "new" psychiatric help, also known as my father-in-law, Rick, and his wife, Sally, several possible reasons for the crappiness have been voiced.

We already know that I have depression and anxiety. I'm struggling a lot with them, mostly the depression, and I think it's due to the other problems, but also to the move. I'm having a difficult time adjusting to living here and the totally different way we have to live life now. I hate being alone so much, and I miss having Mitchell around. Jason came to visit for a few weeks and it was great to have company, but he went home this week.

I also was diagnosed with ADHD when I was a kid. It's always given me a bit of trouble, but I haven't tried to do anything about it. Sally did have me try some medicine a few weeks ago, but it just didn't work for me. My thoughts are always very scattered and I have a hard time focusing on things for very long. I think this is contributing greatly to the chaos that I feel is pervading my life right now. I can never seem to accomplish anything or finish a project or even a thought....

I've been somewhat recently diagnosed with OCD. I was trying to work with my therapist in Provo on the OCD, but it's been a few months since I've seen her (obviously), and I don't think I was really doing my part either. I tend to "put on a show" and look my best when around other people, even though it's not intentional, I just get excited to be with other people! Anyways, being under greater stress has made me go a bit backwards in the progress that I did make, though. I have been getting kind of locked in to lots of patterns and routines that interfere with my daily activities.

Sally believes that I have Bi-polar II, which is just a "milder" form of the disorder, with longer periods between mood changes and less distinctive mania. I feel like this is a revelation to why I feel really depressed, but the next day I feel amazing and I'm dancing and singing all over the place. It just makes so much sense! Knowing what's wrong doesn't help that much, though. And I think the stress of life is causing the mood changes to happen a bit more frequently, too. Sally had me try a mood stabilizer a couple weeks ago; I liked feeling more relaxed, and Mitchell noticed a big difference, but I slept ALL the time (like 12 hours a day), so we stopped that one, too. I haven't seen her recently, so we haven't tried anything new yet.

And, lastly, Sally thinks I have hypothyroid. And, saying that, she's really echoing something my mom has been saying for awhile. I was actually showing thyroid abnormalities in my blood tests a year ago, but they "evened out" and were in the normal range, so treatment wasn't pursued. But I seriously feel like I have pretty much all of the symptoms. I'm so tired and cranky all the time. I'm achy and sore a lot, plus I get frequent neck/headaches. And I'm finally starting to gain weight at a steady pace... (For my whole life, until about a year ago, I was always underweight and I usually needed to be on a diet with an extra 1,000 calories. How do you change 20+ years of thinking that you need to eat tons of carbs?!)

So that's my life right now. Today I've been in a lot of pain and I've been super depressed. At least the depression is decreasing my appetite. I just want to fast forward until a time where all of the problems are being controlled.

Blogging Failure

I'm starting to think I just fail at blogging and maybe I should give up on it. I usually can't think of things to blog about, but when I do, I can't find the time to do it.

We've been sick for a week now. Hopefully, we'll be getting better soon. Being sick really messes everything up.

I just don't know if I should keep this blog up or not.

Dream Home

In my excitement over moving into our new apartment, I started pinning a Pinterest shopping list for things we would need. That led me to start pinning things that I want to have for our new apartment, even though we can't afford them. And that led me to wondering what color schemes I want to have for our someday, final home because I don't want to buy things now that won't work with that decorating scheme. So I went to the library and checked out at least 10 books about decorating and home planning and stuff. But I won't know exactly what I want my decorating scheme to be unless I have an idea of what my house will look like, so I've been going through a book of over 500 Traditional house plans and marking the ones that fit my criteria for a "dream home." I've decided that I want a house with at least 4 bedrooms, a formal dining/living room area, and a open kitchen/family room with a breakfast area. For exteriors, I like stone and timbers on the front, big porches, shutters, and gables, dormers, turrets or bay windows. Inside, I like foyers, more than 1 story, bonus rooms or dens for Mitchell to work in, butler's pantries, "overlooks" on the second floor, powder rooms, coat closets, walk-in bedroom closets, a separate shower/bath in the master bathroom, fireplaces, and kitchen islands.This is a long list of wants/likes, so I'm just looking to get ideas that match as many of those as possible.  It's kind of silly that I'm doing this, but I LOVE it. I just love looking at house plans and making decorating plans and gathering design ideas. It's just way too fun.

Disney

I just found this awesome site. It's thedisneyprincess.tumblr.com and I really love it. It has thousands of pictures from Disney movies. After spending the last half hour or so browsing it, I feel like crying. That comes from a mixture of two things:

1. I love Disney SO much. I grew up on the movies and they have been an integral part of my life. The movies are so beautiful and the stories are so happy and wonderful. When I daydream, I go to those Disney worlds. Disney movies make me feel so happy.

2. My greatest desire for most of my life (besides wanting to get married and have a family) has been to go to Disneyland. I have dreamt of go to Disneyland since I was a tiny, little girl. As I've gotten older, that dream has become somewhat bittersweet because as I get older, it becomes more difficult for me to realize that dream. I know that someday, I will be able to go to Disneyland, but after waiting 20-ish years, it seems like someday will never come.

For now I will wait and I will instill a love for Disney in my own children.

Moving

No, we aren't moving, but I feel like everyone in our ward is. Almost all of Joseph's friends have moved and many of my friends have moved; this means that we are pretty lonely out on the playground right now. I am hoping that a family with children moves into the ward. I'm not used to being the one that stays while everyone else is moving, so it's really weird to me. I've just moved so much in my life that I've gotten used to it. The longest Mitchell and I have lived in one place since we got married was the year that we lived at his mom's house. It's going to feel really weird staying here in Provo for so long. I keep trying to rearrange the house because I just don't feel entirely at home yet. I don't feel like this is a very permanent place, but we are going to be living here longer than we've lived anywhere else. It's not very easy to decorate because we can't hang much on the walls and we don't have any shelves for setting pictures or knick-knacks on. It is slowly coming together, though. We just moved Mitchell's desk into the living room and the tv into the bedroom so that we can work on our homework in the same room. It's been nice so far, but the living room doesn't really feel like a living room anymore.

Most of our time is now consumed by school. I was up until 11 or 12 almost every night this week either working on projects or trying to get Annabelle to sleep. And I was waking up between 6 and 8 every morning as well. I've realized that I don't do well with less than 8 hours of sleep. I'm hoping to try to catch up on some sleep this weekend. We'll so how things really go.

I'm going to go to bed now so that I can start catching up on that sleep.

Yesterday was so great! But today I feel awful. I don't really know why. All I want to do is lay in bed reading and get fat from eating brownies. That is probably what I will end up doing because I can't seem to find the motivation to do anything else...

Random Stuff

I feel like my life is too boring to post anything. We really don't that much.

We got a free dining table with chairs from our old Bishop yesterday. I love the table, but I plan on reupholstering the chairs some day. Maybe my mom can help me out because she's done it and I never have.

It rained a lot this week. Monday was awful because we had a bunch of errands to run and the sky was dumping water out at a crazy rate. We got really soaked.

Mitchell accidentally missed his graduation. We read the letter wrong and thought it was last night, but it was on Friday night. Luckily, he wasn't incredibly excited about going. He says the only graduation he's ever been to is his kindergarten graduation. I'm sure that we'll go when he graduates from BYU. And we'll read the letter correctly then, too.

Sunday was our last day in Nursery. We're being released for 2 reasons. 1) We're moving in 2 months and 2) the activity is getting hard for me because, in the words of Mitchell, I'm a weenie at being pregnant. His brother says it's takes a baby to make one.

Joseph is getting way better at walking. He walks 80% of the time at home and 60% of the time at church. He still crawls when he's outside, though.

I'm obsessed with Mercedes Lackey's Elemental Masters series. I told Mitchell they are the perfect subject for me: magic, fairy tales, historical fiction. They are quite tame on the side of language and other such things, which is especially good with most authors now.

That's all I can think of for now. Tomorrow I'll try to post a cute video of Joseph talking to my mom on the phone. It's his new favorite pasttime.

Too Long

It has been way too long since I've posted. It's partly laziness, partly Joseph interference, and a little bit business that has kept me from posting. I decided that if I didn't post now, I probably wouldn't for another week.

Mitchell is done with school, yay! His graduation is next Tuesday. He will be graduating Summa Cum Laude, which is awesome. He accidentally forgot to take the final exam for his online Art History course, but he did so well in his other classes that he still had a 3.895 GPA.

He also quit working at Cal'z and is back at Chick-Fil-A full-time. They finally promoted him, so he's making more money and he has a little more responsibility. He doesn't hate going to work and he has friends there that he likes talking with, so it's been good for him.

We suddenly have tons of freetime and we've been at a loss for what to do with ourselves. Mitchell never gets off later than 2, so we have the afternoon and evening with nothing planned.

We took Joseph to the park one evening and he loved going down the slides with Mitchell. He didn't really like the swing, though. He liked crawling around in the grassy areas looking for flowers, too.

Joseph is finally getting better at walking, although he'll only walk at home. Everywhere else, he crawls. I think it's a comfort thing. He's still really wobbly and falls frequently. He curls his toes under and splays his feet out funny when he walks. He's also so excited to be walking that he loses his balance easily.

He was REALLY sick last week. He had a fever hovering between 103 and 104 for 3 or 4 days. He threw up a few times when the fever was really high. He lost weight because he didn't want to eat, which was bad because he's already underweight. He finally recovered, though, and is just fine now.

I'm going to be 17 weeks pregnant tomorrow. Because of multiple difficulties with the Medicaid people, I still haven't gone in to the doctor for an appointment. Right now, I just have to find a paystub that mysteriously disappeared and then things should be in order so that I can go to an appointment. By then I might be far enough to find out if the baby is a boy or girl!

Well, that's the basics of what's been happening around here. I'm going to try harder to post every day. I'll use the time while Joseph is eating his breakfast more wisely.

Early Morning

Mitchell had his friend, Peter, stay over last night to help him finish his cartoon for school. They were up until extremely late (I don't know the exact time) recording voices and sound effects. Lately, Mitchell has been sleeping on the couch and Joseph stays in the bed with me at night. It actually works out well because Mitchell prefers the couch, he thinks it's more comfortable and I'm not on it moving around and touching him. But since Peter was here, he slept on the couch. Mitchell slept mostly on the end of the bed last night, on my feet. It was an uncomfortable and long night. Mitchell had to go to work at 6 this morning. Peter woke me up at 7 wondering if he could take a shower. I wasn't planning on having an overnight guest, so we don't have any clean towels. He just went home to shower. But Joseph woke up because of the noise. I was totally hoping to get 2 more hours of sleep. Oh well, now we're awake and moving. Maybe these extra 2 hours will help me get some important stuff done.

My Biggest Regret and Greatest Desire

I am not feeling very happy this morning. My dreams last night have put me in a sort of depressed mood. On a regular basis, I have bad dreams about my self-perceived failure to get an education. In the dreams, I am usually at a school with an extremely heavy load, but I only go so some of my classes and I never do any homework. I'm also usually repeating my 12th grade year in high school.

My dreams are a skewed version of reality. I was homeschooled my senior year because I was having multiple major surgeries that made it impossible for me to leave the house. I didn't even do very much homeschool work because the combination of the healing process, the pain, and the drugs made me very tired and my brain very slow. I got my GED when I was finished with the surgeries. I didn't have any trouble with that at all. But school has always been very important to me, so I didn't ever feel like I really graduated. When I was finally done with all the surgeries (it nearly 3 years), I decided I could try to do some college work. Popi gave me money to enroll in some online BYU courses. Stupidly, I chose 4 very heavy classes. 16 credits after 3 years of no school is not a smart idea. When I started the classes, I was staying at my aunt's house in Reno. Those 2 months are the most serene and peaceful of my whole life. I was doing great on my classes and I felt so good about them. Then my life got crazier than it had ever been in my whole life. Within the next year I: had my wisdom teeth out in 4 separate and painful appointment, got dry socket and an infection, got engaged, moved across country, got married, got pregnant and ridiculously sick with the morning sickness, moved across country again, became really depressed, and had a baby. Because of all the turmoil and upheaval, I didn't finish my classes. It has become one of the things I most regret in my life. I'm constantly dreaming about that failure.

Now I have a 1 year old and I'm pregnant again. I feel like it will be a decade or so before I'll finally have the chance to go to college. The hardest part is that going to college was one of the biggest dreams I had growing up. I miss learning so much! I feel kind of stuck right now. I thought about doing one of the free BYU courses, but I can't afford to buy the required reading. I sometimes get jealous of Mitchell because he's going to school and having a great time learning all these things that he's always wanted to. He gets jealous of me because he's so busy and I'm not at all. I don't know what to do with myself. My brain feels like it's starving.

Errands and an Anti-Nap

Mitchell doesn't have class on Fridays and Saturdays, so they end up being my errand days. He was exhausted when he got home from Chick-Fil-A because he had gone into work at 6 and hadn't gotten home from work the night before until 12-ish. So Joseph and I showered and dressed quickly so we could leave and Mitchell could take a nap. We went to Rite Aid and the library. There was supposed to be free donuts available at the church, so we went there and there was 1 very sad looking donut left. I ate it. Then we drove to the closest hospital so that Joseph could have his bloodwork done. When we got there, they said they didn't have any needles small enough for him. It was raining by then, so we just drove home. Joseph napped in the car.

Once we got home, we had some lunch and then I was exhausted so I decided to take a nap. Mitchell was watching a movie, so I told him to watch Joseph. After a few minutes, Mitchell came and laid down. Apparently, he hadn't been able to sleep earlier, so he hadn't have a nap. It turned out that Mitchell slept while I dozed and tried to keep Joseph out of stuff and stop him from beating me up. By the time Mitchell got up, I was even more tired, very annoyed, and I had a headache. That's why I call it an Anti-Nap.

I eventually recovered and got the kitchen clean and did some laundry. Overall, it was a pretty good day. I think today's going to be good, too. I'm just going to have to get used to Joseph's new early waking up (8:30 the past 2 days when it used to be 10!).

Long Walks and Housework

I can't even remember what I did yesterday morning, so it must not have been anything important. I think I just did stuff on the computer. I do remember that after Mitchell went to class, I kept smelling smoke while I was sitting at the computer. There's a bunch of repairmen fixing stuff around the complex, so I figured it was something they were doing. Then I turned around and saw a small fire outside of my front window. Somehow some of the woodchips in the area next to our apartment had caught on fire. They put it out and everything was fine, but it was a little scary at first.

Joseph and I showered and then we walked to Rite Aid, which is just down the street. I browsed at different beauty products until Joseph couldn't stand to be there any longer. Then we walked down to Food Lion. When I got home with the groceries, I learned that buying eggs and walking home with them is not a very good idea because 4 of them broke on the way home.

Because we were out walking during naptime neither of us got a nap. So Joseph actually fell asleep at 8, which is early for him. I was considering going to bed early, but Mitchell called me while delivering pizzas. He was frusterated because one of his managers had been really condescending and rude to him. I decided to clean up the living room (which looked like a train wreck) so that he would have something nice to come home, too. I went to bed at 10 when I couldn't stay awake any longer. I've been absolutely awful about housework the past week or so and it felt really good to get the living room clean.

I'm feeling pretty great today and the sun just broke through the clouds, so I think it's going to be a beautiful day. I'm planning on getting a lot of good stuff done today.

Busy Morning, Lazy Afternoon

Okay, so yesterday morning was really busy for me. On most mornings, Joseph and I don't wake up until 9:30 or 10 and then we take our time eating breakfast. Yesterday, we had morning appointments and Mitchell was working at Chick-Fil-A, so we had to drive Mitchell to work at 5:15 in the morning. When we came back, I fell asleep before setting an alarm. We slept through our 7:45 WIC appointment. But we got up and ready to make it to Joseph's 15 month well-baby check-up just in time. The doctor was not happy about his progress. He's 15 months, but he's only 20 lbs. and 28 1/2 inches. He also isn't walking or even really trying to walk. So now I have to make sure to force feed him 4 full meals a day, add Pediasure to his diet, give him vitamins every day, get his blood checked for anemia, and take him to a specialist to see why he isn't walking and why he's "failing to thrive." Mitchell called asking to be picked up just as the doctor walked into the room. He was very patient and waited 45 minutes for us to get there.

Once we were home, I did nothing for the day. I was hungry and ate some almonds while trying to figure out something more substantial. Mitchell left for class and I ran into the bathroom and puked up all the almonds. That just seemed to ruin me for the rest of the day. I was exhausted, weak, and out-of-it for the rest of the day. I just read and Joseph played and did his own little things. When Mitchell came home, we went to Pizza Hut for dinner. And then we came home and went to bed early.

I think the rest was good because I'm feeling better today. I have this desire to garden, but I don't have anywhere that I can garden. Oh well, I'll just go for a long walk instead.

Exhaustion and Games

I'm tired. That's all the thought that my brain can really hold right now. My house is a huge mess, but it took me most of the day to work up the energy to clean any of it. My kitchen is semi-clean now (dinner last night messed up it's cleanliness) and there isn't a mountain of laundry on my bedroom floor. I think I'm going to have the same problem today. Exhaustion is weighing down all my muscles and aching in my bones and my brain is working at half-speed. I don't know if it's just being pregnant or if the change in the weather is affecting me (it went from being bright, sunny, and warm to gloomy, rainy, and cold on Sunday). I think all I plan on doing today is reading until it's time to make dinner for Mitchell and go to Ellen's for American Idol. Maybe a day of rest will help me feel better.

On a somewhat funny note, Mitchell's friend Peter came over last night to play a game with us. The funny part is the game. When I became a part of Mitchell's family, I learned that they like to play role playing games. Mostly they just play Star Wars the Role Playing game, but occasionally Dungeons and Dragons and other similar games. When all of his siblings are in town, we spend hours playing Star Wars. So last night, Peter came over to help us roll up characters for a game called HackMaster. I'm in the process of creating a Halfling Thief and Mitchell is a Human Warrior. Apparently, this is going to become a weekly thing. It's going to Mitchell's de-stresser until the end of the school semester. He's under a lot of pressure because it's his last semester before he gets his degree and now he's also working 2 jobs. So anyways, that was our FHE activity last night.

I'm Getting Too Distracted...

Okay, I've been doing an awful job of posting. And it's so funny because I'm actually having exciting things happening in my life. Mitchell finally started at Chick-Fil-A this morning, so I'm going to try to post in the mornings while I eat breakfast because the computer will be free and I tend to eat breakfast in front of the computer anyways (partly because the desk is our only table-like surface).

Here's a quick update of some of the things that have happened:

• We were able to have dinner with Aunt Becky and Uncle Clyde on St. Patrick's Day. It was really fun. Later in the evening, Mitchell insisted on going somewhere Irish to drink root beer because we don't drink real beer. The place he wanted to go to (Keagan's) had a line starting to wrap around the block. So we went to Kelly's Tavern and he ate a horrible Reuben with soggy french fries and I didn't eat my cheesecake because it was too disgusting.
• The weather turned BEAUTIFUL. It's been in the high 70s and low 80s the past few days, so we've spent a lot of time outside.
• Mitchell was accepted to BYU-Provo for the Fall semester!!! We are VERY excited. I can't wait to get out near family again.
• I started spring cleaning and got my desk cleaned and organized for the first time since we moved in. The rest of the house is a disaster, though. Mitchell says the house was cleaner before I started spring cleaning.
• I'm approximately 8 weeks pregnant and I have my first appointment this week. I'm still morning sick, but haven't thrown up for a while. I've had a few scares, though. I almost puked all over our tables at Logan's Roadhouse, Chick-Fil-A, and my mother-in-law's table when guests were over (these were all different days). Luckily, I kept it all in.

Well, that's all for now. I'm going to try REALLY hard to post tomorrow.

Morning Sickness is taking over my life!!

I don't really feel like posting, but I want to get back in the habit. To be truthful, I don't feel like doing anything. I do have a reason for that, though. In order to deal with my morning sickness, I'm taking half a Unisom and a Vitamin B6 twice a day. Since Unisom is a sleeping pill, I'm tired all day and night. I'm also wearing motion sickness bands on my wrists from the minute I wake up until it's time for bed. And I still throw up every morning! I would rather be tired than severely nauseated, though. When I was pregnant with Joseph, the morning sickness lasted until I was around 15 to 18 weeks pregnant. Hopefully, it won't last as long this time around. Mitchell is very understanding of my exhaustion and sickness. The past couple days, he's fed Joseph breakfast while I've been in the bathroom puking. He did his own laundry today. And he isn't complaining about my almost non-existent cooking and cleaning. I did clean the kitchen and living room yesterday, but they are already a distaster. And all my energy was spent grocery shopping today. The only thing I can think to do is push myself a little harder.

I hope this isn't too much of a downer. I'm not depressed or anything. I'm really just too exhausted to have any real emotions. One good thing is that I've been getting a lot of good reading time.

Excuses

I know it's been a long time since I've posted. I'm going to give you some excuses as to why I haven't. And it's not because nothing interesting has happened. In fact, it's been an eventful month.

Excuse #1 - I started trying to post a Best of 2009 List with pictures and it got complicated and messed up and then Joseph prevented me from finishing. It seemed too complicated so I kept procrastinating posting it and my linear mind wouldn't let me skip it and come back later.

Excuse #2 - Mitchell has a bunch of big projects for school that require him to spend a lot of time on the computer, so he's frequently using it.

Excuse #3 - We've been sick again with fevers, coughs, and congestion. Joseph's has turned into his 2nd ever ear infection. The funny thing is that the only 2 ear infections he's ever had have happened just since January.

Excuse #4 - We found out a couple weeks ago that I am expecting Baby #2. I've been exhausted, moody, and, just in the past week, morning (all-day) sick.

I'm about to fall asleep on the keyboard, but I decided to force myself to post or I probably never would. And Mitchell's drawing in his sketchbook right now, so the computer's free for once (it's Spring Break this week, so he's on the computer 90% of the day).

I'll have more updates when I'm not so exhausted.

Stress

So, it has been a very long time since I've posted. I've realized that even though I made this blog to help with my emotions/depression, when I really am depressed or stressed, I ignore it. I'll have to work on that.

Things are very stressful right now:

• Mitchell still doesn't have a job.



• We have less than $50 to live on until one of us gets a job and a paycheck.



• Pretty much all of our Christmas plans are ruined.

I spent almost 4 hours at the Department of Human Services yesterday. We applied for food stamps (now called SNAP) and TANF. It was very tiring because Joseph didn't want to be held for that long, but he couldn't crawl around there.

Joseph discovered spitting a few days ago. Now he spits his food on me whenever he eats. It's so annoying and frustrating. I don't know how to get him to stop. He thinks it's hilarious and saying "No!" just makes him laugh even more.

I had a job interview at Food Lion on Tuesday. If I don't hear back sometime today, then I didn't get the job. I don't think I will. She didn't like that one of my reasons for quitting my last job was to care for my baby. I think she's looking for someone who's going to be there for a while and I'm just looking for a job to get us through the next 3 or 4 months.

Mitchell has a job interview for a manager position at Chipotle, but it's not until next Tuesday. That seems way too long to wait. I hope he get the job, though.

I had my appointment with the counselor at the Mental Health Department. It was good to finally get in there. She put me in group therapy, but I haven't been able to go because we can't afford to pay for them. My Psych. Eval. is tomorrow. I'm going to go to that and just hope that we get a job before we get the bill. I'm on a sliding fee scale and nothing costs more than $10, but we don't even have that much.

So, to sum everything up, life is pretty hard right now.

My goal for the day is: to do something to make me laugh.

Oh, and here's a picture of what Joseph does whenever I try to use the computer.

Sore and Sad

I don't know if I'm ready for today. I'm very sore. Yesterday I tried this workout DVD and I just about killed myself. It's a fat-blasting ab workout. Lately I've been having trouble with people thinking I'm pregnant. I never lost all of the weight from Joseph and I decided that now's the time. But I think I worked too hard yesterday.

I'm also feeling a little sad. I'm missing my family. My family all lives out west and I'm stuck out in the east. It's been almost 6 months since I've seen my mom and sisters and it's going to be a lot longer before I actually do. We were planning on going to see my dad for Christmas, who we haven't seen for nearly 2 years and we barely saw him then, but since Mitchell doesn't have a job, it's unlikely that we'll have the money. And after reading everyone's wonderful memories of Popi, I miss him terribly. I have only spent 15 minutes with Popi in the last 6 1/2 years. I wish I could see him.

Well, I need to try to get something done today. I'm going to do some yoga and hope it helps.

Getting Better

Well, it's been a while since I've been able to post. We got hit by a huge Nor'Easter on Thursday. There was lots of power flickering on and off at our house. We came out pretty lucky, though. Our roommate's dad lost all his power and sent all the stuff in his freezer to our house. Now our freezer is so full, it's scary to open it. Today as we were driving to church we saw tons of fences blown over, there were leaves and branches everywhere and a streetlight was missing from the powerline at one place. I'm glad we don't have a yard to clean up. Although, it's going to be a pain to clean Joseph's stroller, which I left on the porch.

I'm doing pretty good. I think I've gotten past my video game binge. I played myself sick. I blame my Dad for that, but I love him anyways. :)

Today was a good day. I was dreading Nursery this morning, just because I was tired and it gets so crazy. But it went great. Sacrament Meeting was awesome, too. I'm so glad that I went to church.

We had Family Council and set goals for the week. My goal is to write in my journal and the Joseph Journal every day. We also have a family goal to remember to read our scriptures every day. We have a hard time staying consistent with that.

Well, Mitchell's waiting for the computer, so I'm done now.