Not Feeling Great

I feel terrible again today. My head feels like it's going to implode, my chest feels like it's being crushed, and moving my limbs seems nearly impossible. I don't know what's going on with me. Maybe I just need to go to bed earlier. All I know is that, right now, today seems hopeless.

Sore and Sad

I don't know if I'm ready for today. I'm very sore. Yesterday I tried this workout DVD and I just about killed myself. It's a fat-blasting ab workout. Lately I've been having trouble with people thinking I'm pregnant. I never lost all of the weight from Joseph and I decided that now's the time. But I think I worked too hard yesterday.

I'm also feeling a little sad. I'm missing my family. My family all lives out west and I'm stuck out in the east. It's been almost 6 months since I've seen my mom and sisters and it's going to be a lot longer before I actually do. We were planning on going to see my dad for Christmas, who we haven't seen for nearly 2 years and we barely saw him then, but since Mitchell doesn't have a job, it's unlikely that we'll have the money. And after reading everyone's wonderful memories of Popi, I miss him terribly. I have only spent 15 minutes with Popi in the last 6 1/2 years. I wish I could see him.

Well, I need to try to get something done today. I'm going to do some yoga and hope it helps.

Getting Better

Well, it's been a while since I've been able to post. We got hit by a huge Nor'Easter on Thursday. There was lots of power flickering on and off at our house. We came out pretty lucky, though. Our roommate's dad lost all his power and sent all the stuff in his freezer to our house. Now our freezer is so full, it's scary to open it. Today as we were driving to church we saw tons of fences blown over, there were leaves and branches everywhere and a streetlight was missing from the powerline at one place. I'm glad we don't have a yard to clean up. Although, it's going to be a pain to clean Joseph's stroller, which I left on the porch.

I'm doing pretty good. I think I've gotten past my video game binge. I played myself sick. I blame my Dad for that, but I love him anyways. :)

Today was a good day. I was dreading Nursery this morning, just because I was tired and it gets so crazy. But it went great. Sacrament Meeting was awesome, too. I'm so glad that I went to church.

We had Family Council and set goals for the week. My goal is to write in my journal and the Joseph Journal every day. We also have a family goal to remember to read our scriptures every day. We have a hard time staying consistent with that.

Well, Mitchell's waiting for the computer, so I'm done now.

Blah

That's how I feel today: blah. Mitchell is skipping class today and he and his friend are playing video games in the living room. It's totally throwing me off of any plan or schedule I might have had. I don't know what I'm going to do today.

I didn't get much done yesterday. There was a whole fiasco with the dentist thing. I waited for 2 hours in the waiting room for my appointment. Then my dentist, our friend from church, came out and asked why I was there and that my appointment wasn't until tomorrow. I told him I was sure that it was supposed to be today. So he fixed me up. On the way home, Mitchell told me that my appointment wasn't until Wednesday. Then I realized I had gone through the whole day thinking it was Wednesday and it wasn't.

I guess I completed my goal because I didn't have a meltdown or anything. I ended up playing Fable, but I also washed the bed sheets and did another load of laundry, too.

Today's goal: ...I'll get back on that one...

Slacking

Well, I have been seriously slacking on blogging and goal setting. I've been sick, though. It's just a cold so it's nothing too major, but it's still made me feel horrible and not want to do anything. I've been spending a lot of time playing video games. It's terrible, I find them so addictive and I love playing them. I inherited it from my father.

I have another dentist appointment today. My bridge came loose again. It's not as bad as it was, but it still needs to be fixed. That's going to take up a chunk of my afternoon.

I'm not sure what to set as a goal for today. I'm feeling a little lost and foggy. I have been dealing with a little more depression this past week or so.

Okay... I've been sitting here for a few minutes trying to think of a goal and I'm not succeeding. That just shows how foggy I am today. I'm thinking that just making it through the day without a meltdown is a good enough goal. To tell the truth, I really just want to get back on Fable 2 and find the last 13 gargoyles. I'm totally a video game nerd.

Well, I'm going to attempt to make progress on this day. If anyone has any advice on beating this mood, I'd welcome it.

Stuff and other stuff

Well, Monday didn't go as planned. I didn't get my chores done. It wasn't a very good day for me. Yesterday was good, though. I worked too hard, though. I passed out asleep before I could spend any time with Mitchell (9 pm). Now I feel sick today. I'm hoping it's just bad allergies and it will go away in a day or two. So I don't know what's going to happen today. I can't even think straight enough to set a goal for today.

Oh, so last night I was thinking about Thanksgiving. We are eating at Mitchell's mom's this year, but someday I'll be in charge of Thanksgiving. I decided that I want my Thanksgiving to be like I remember it at Grandma and Popi's. The only problem is that it's been 10 years and I have a terrible memory. If all my Brugger family could help me remember what dishes Grandma normally made and if there are recipes, let me know, I would love it!

Back in the Swing of Things

It's been a few days since I set goals for myself. I guess sewing Joseph's costume was a goal, but I still want to get back into setting myself goals everyday.

Today's goal: To get all my chores done. I set up a cleaning schedule for myself a couple months ago and I haven't been following it. Today is bathroom cleaning day and it hasn't been done since we moved here... It's embarrasing admitting it. It's not disgustingly dirty, but it is dirty. So that's what I'm going to do today.

And because I don't want this post to be boring, I'm including some pictures of Joseph from last week.

Naptime

Getting caught turning the computer on and off. The little black board was supposed to stop him from getting to it. It obviously didn't work.

Halloween 2009

Well, it was Joseph's first Halloween and I think it went pretty well. This is basically just going to be pictures with explanations. We did go to the Trunk or Treat. Mitchell passed out candy and Joseph and I walked around to show off our costumes and see the costumes of everyone else. We got some candy in the process.

That's right, we're Trekkies. We loved the show (the first season with William Shatner) when we watched it earlier this year and then the movie came out. We aren't the nerdy Trekkies, though. We've only watched the first season and I don't think we'll ever get into all the other versions. Mitchell was Scotty and even did the accent when he was handing out candy. I was Uhura. And Joseph was Captain Kirk.

Captain Kirk. I made his shirt. It came out so well.
Mitchell tried taking a picture of Joseph's little hair-do that he did. It was supposed to stick up a little like Kirk's does. It only lasted for about 20 minutes.

Uncle John and Aunt Sara, Mitchell's brother and sister.

Joseph's reaction after seeing Uncle John and Aunt Sara. It was so cute and so sad at the same time. He got really scared and started crying when Sara started laughing at John's costume.

So, that's our Halloween. It was good. Now I'm going to try to get back into everyday life after spending the past week trying to do costumes and things.