Update

I've been feeling prompted to return to blogging for awhile now, but I always put it on the back-burner. I guess today I'm going to try to come back to blogging. I want my family to know what's going on in my life. I want to share things with them.

I guess this post will be an update on everything that has happened in the past couple months. We moved in with Mitchell's mom, Ellen, the beginning of April. Mitchell is taking this time to work on his art so that he can progress in his career.

I am 10 weeks pregnant with an "Oops!" baby; I had applied to attend BYU in January, but now I'm having a baby in November, so that's not happening. I was on a mood stabilizer for bipolar II disorder, but had to stop because of the pregnancy. I also can't take Xanax any longer. 

I am in the process of getting into the Mental Health system here so that I can get things figured out, but I've probably got a few more weeks before I get to see a psychiatrist. With all the moving and then medication changes, I've been struggling a bit with my mood and functioning and such. I'm just trying to take things slowly right now. 

Joseph is attending school at the "same" elementary school Mitchell went to; I used the quotation marks because it's a new building with none of the same teachers, but it has the same name, mascot, and location. He is doing pretty well. Some days are better than others, but that's how things always are.

That's the biggest stuff that's happened, and the basis of my life right now!

Baby Stuff

We went to Babies R Us and put stuff on our baby registry today. I think it's so fun to look through all the stuff and scan it in. I was very conservative in what we added to this registry (unlike Joseph's) and only added things that we really need or would use a lot. The sad part about making a baby registry is knowing you probably won't get anything on the list. So, when I made it this time, I thought, "Well, even if I get a very similar item, that will still be good. In fact, if I get anything at all it will be good." I forgot how expensive it is to have a baby. Especially when you leave most of your stuff behind. A lot of the stuff we got for Joseph was old and not in great condition, so we decided it wasn't worth bringing. Now we don't have a lot of stuff. Plus having a girl makes a difference because most of the gifts we were given with Joseph were very boy-ish. I'm very grateful for what we do have: the clothes my mom got that should last the first 3 months, the bassinett Aunt Marianne is letting us borrow, the car seat and stroller that we were able to buy, etc. I think I have a problem with wanting stuff. I just like having cute things, but I'm learning to be grateful for what we do have. I need to be fine with Annabelle using boy towels and boy washcloths and boy bibs because that's what we have.

Okay, I need to stop rambling. I'm feeling kind of depressed today. I think it's because I'm tired and sore and just ready to have this baby. It's funny because I'm not even due until Halloween, but the past 2 weeks have been very difficult. I'm so sore that I can hardly walk some of the time. And it's just emotionally draining because I don't know what day she's going to come. I hope it's soon, though. I don't know how much more I can take.

I'm sorry this is a depressing post. Maybe tomorrow I can do something happier.

More Normal

I went and saw my doctor yesterday because I was a little worried. I'd been having a lot of cramping and contractions Monday night. But I didn't dilate anymore through all of that pain, so...

I've decided I'm actually going to start getting some stuff done. I'm still taking my terbutaline regularly because he said not to stop that until Saturday, but I'm going back to an almost normal schedule. I'm not going to work out or do any really intense cleaning, but I'm going to just ignore most of the contractions I have because I'm not having the baby yet. I think I'll know now when it's really happening. I'll probably just have to wait until my water breaks again.

Pregnacy Update - 3

I've been reacting pretty badly to the Terbutaline that the doctor prescribed me. My heart was pounding so hard (my heart rate was in the 110-120 range for about 6 or 7 hours yesterday) that I was having chest pain and the tremors were so bad I couldn't do anything (I almost cut of my finger trying to slice some tomatoes). So I called the doctor to ask if I could have something different. It turns out there was a miscommunication somewhere and the amount that was written on the instructions on the bottle was an overdose of the medication. Yesterday I took over 4 times the amount I should have. So now I'm taking the correct dose and things should be a lot better. I might even be able to get out of bed and do some stuff. I'm not actually on bed rest, I'm just supposed to take it easy, but the effects of the medicine have kept me in my bed almost constantly. The doctor said that I only have to take the medicine until a little before the 10th. So I'm just going to press on and pray that things will get easier.

Pregnancy Update - 2

We spent an hour and a half in the hospital last night because I was contracting every 7-8 minutes. And I blame it all on Walmart.

We went to Walmart to pick up my prescription. When I dropped it off, they said it'd be ready in an hour and a half. It's kind of far to Walmart from our apartment, so we decided to just wander around until it was ready, slowly of course. We finally go to pick it up and they tell us they don't have it in stock and won't have it until tomorrow at 12:30. So we'd just spent all that time in Walmart for no reason.

Later in the evening, we are watching some X-Files and I start contracting. I didn't have my medication to stop the contractions, so I just try resting and relaxing. After an hour or so of regular contractions, we finally decided that it would be best for us to go into the hospital. I accidentally called our neighbors thinking their number was the doctor's number and they had us take Joseph over there. Luckily, everyone at the Utah Valley Hospital works very quickly and is very nice. That was the shortest and most pleasant hospital visit we've ever had. They gave me a couple shots of Turbutaline and my contractions stopped. But that hour of contractions dilated me about another cm so I'm now 2 1/2 cm dilated.

We went back to Walmart and picked up my prescription this afternoon. It's working, but I hate the side effects. The medicine gives me really bad tremors and makes me very out of it. I don't know how I'm going to survive the next 2 weeks if I'm going to be taking this regularly. Lots of prayer, I think.

So please keep me and the baby in your prayers. Hopefully, everything will work out fine. I'm just going to put my trust in Heavenly Father's judgement on what's best for me and the baby.

Pregnancy Update

Alright, I'm back from my appointment. Not the greatest news, but not totally horrible.

I'm 1 1/2 - 2 cm dilated and 70% effaced. The good part is that I was the same thing with Joseph for like 6 weeks and he didn't come early, in fact it took pitocin for him to be born. But I was on strict bed rest for those 6 weeks. My doctor didn't tell me that I needed to be on strict bed rest, but he did say I have to take it easy for the next 2 weeks. And I have a presription for some medicine to help stop the contractions.

I'll make sure to keep all of you updated on how I'm doing. Right now, I'm having contractions. So, I'm going to Walmart to get my prescription to stop them.

A Little Worried

So late on Saturday night, I started having fairly frequent and painful contractions for about an hour or 2. I went to bed, hoping I just needed rest.

Yesterday morning, I woke up and started getting ready for church. But within a few minutes of getting up, I started feeling crampy and feeling a lot of pressure. I layed down until it was time for church. I decided to try going to church, but I only made it through the Sacrament before I knew I should be at home in bed. As we walked home from church, I literally felt like I had to keep my legs clenched shut to keep the baby in. It was a really strange feeling. I spent all day yesterday in bed. Even just getting up to use the bathroom would start the cramping again.

So this afternoon I am going in for an appointment to see if all of this cramping has dilated me at all. I'm hoping that I'm just being to sensitive or something like that. I don't want to have to worry about anything for the next few weeks. I'll try to remember to post what I find out later today so that no one starts worrying.

Busy, Busy, Busy

I've been so busy this week. I've been trying to do some deeper cleaning in the house and I've also been trying to get everything organized and ready for the baby. I'm 35 weeks along now. I'm just getting so close to being done. We're excited for the baby and I'm excited to not be pregnant anymore. I've been feeling like she'll be born on or around the 21st. We'll see what happens, though. I can feel my body getting more ready for labor with more frequent contractions and such. I feel like she's taking over my whole body and there's no more room for her to fit in there.

I need to go get ready for church. I just wanted to write a short post about what's been going on this past week. I need to try and make more time for posting this week...

Packing and Fun Pregnancy Stuff

Mitchell stayed home from work yesterday and we cleaned and packed most of our office. We have 6 packed boxes and 2 that are almost full. He also cleaned our living room carpet with a carpet cleaner we borrowed from a family at church. It had so many stains and it looked horrible even though it's only 3 or 4 months old. Now it looks beautiful again. Our place is back on the market. We haven't had anyone come look at it, but I'm not expecting us to. For some reason, the realtors don't like showing properties that have people living in them. Stupid, huh? I guess it's okay for now, because only the living room and dining/office look nice right now, the rest is a disaster.

I'm 22 weeks along now. And I'm dealing with lots of fun pregnancy symptoms like heartburn, leg cramps, weird skin issues, fatigue, memory loss, abdominal cramps (it's almost like having my period!)... not to mention (TMI alert!) the uti and yeast infections that I had at the same time. Yesterday, I said, "Why does being pregnant have to hurt so much?" Mitchell says, "Because that's what the Lord told Eve. There's a verse in the scriptures, do you want me to look it up and read it to you?" The last part was said a teasing/sarcastically. I love my husband, he's good at making me see the good/valuable side of things.